I saw what I saw.....

...I am vowing never to get that sick again, never, at least not in my apartment by myself with a baby.....I have to laugh at what my dad always said to us kids growing up, anytime we would go through something rough ( rough as in being found during hide and seek, or leaving your best doll in the rain overnight or even falling off your bike and getting one of those bad concrete scrapes) "It builds character" he would say "It builds character" ...so it did and so it does... Madi and I had some good character building, the past few days....in finishing my long stretch of wretched dentist appointments, I have had since I lived in Guatemala ( and I am one of those white knuckled gripping, not eating a week before a simple cleaning (ha...little exaggerated) people, seriously dislike the entire profession)...so, how about some good character building, Dad...try about 24 hours in a dentist office over the past 10 months...hey, does it still count as building that old character, when you calmly ask the dentist to please drug you or knock you out so soundly that you don't wake up for at least, well, give it 48 hours...and in Guatemala, there is very little "red tape" to go through for such a request...more like, "Si no problemo" My dentist is great, really and does a great job, but a couple days ago, I left Madi with a sitter and went into the city for my second to the last appointment ( can you tell I have been counting) 5 hour one, at that....what a doozy and came home so sick, I couldn't see straight. With Madi as my nurse we battled through it though...poor child, I seriously don't remember even feeding her, but looking at my sink full of dishes, I must have, or maybe Madi whipped up some delectable's for the both of us, who truly knows!! My friend Sharon ( bless her) came laden with "ibuprofeno" ice cream, Gatorade and a "Get Well Soon" balloon, to Madi's delight, trust me, she deserved it, she was the hero baby of the hour, that's for sure!!

I had to share this song with you guys...many of you may have already heard it, but it so adequately describes the heart changing that the Lord allows, once our eyes have been open to need...

"Compassion ~ is not a bending toward the underprivileged from a privileged position; it is not a reaching out from on high to those who are less fortunate below; it is not a gesture of sympathy or pity for those who fail to make it in the upward pull - .....On the contrary, compassion means going to those people and places where suffering is most acute and building a home there. God's compassion is total, absolute, unconditional, without reservation. It is the compassion of one who keeps going to the most forgotten corners of the world, and who cannot rest as long as he knows that there are still human beings with tears in their eyes."

"I saw what I saw